Me n My Madness – IX

It was during the winter holidays which got extended due to teacher’s strike when I was last allowed at my madness’ dwelling. The whole long day we used to sit and watch horror shows when she got scared and I used to laugh, played chess when she had only 2 moves before checkmate, played badminton when I loved rest of the crowd of my road. So studies could never make it to our agenda… poor teachers were on strike don’t know for what reason, but we loved the long holidays so much that we are now out of college for past 2 years!

It was one of those nights during those holidays when 3 of us were counting stars on the terrace… me n my madness and her Roxy! The cool breeze and Ricky Martin playing his cup of life out of my aiwa walkman had occupied our space. Those days I liked playing my mandolin and my madness wasn’t in a mood to listen.

‘You know what? I hate my dad’ she said.

‘Why? What happened now?’

‘He still wants me to read well’

‘But my mom is more unbearable…’

‘I don’t want to be an engineer or doctor’

‘Nor do I’

‘I want to become a heroine’ she said something without really thinking… as always!

‘And I want to be a villain’ I argued.

‘I’m serious you know? Riya’s mom knows a few people… can you accompany me tomorrow to the H N Hall?’
I thought she was blabbering but she was serious.

‘Ok but why?’

‘You’ll know…’

Later in the night I was thinking about the next day and couldn’t sleep well. Before I slept it was morning and she was calling my landline. Those 3 rings meant it was her. I wasn’t really interested but wanted to know what she was going to do. So I got up and had no time to get ready and rushed off! We were at the H N Hall…

Priya was an assistant director for a tele-serial and had promised my madness of a role. So we had gone with lots of hope.

‘Hey I’ve a role of a villain, would you be interested to do?’ Priya asked me while my madness blinked at me.



To be continued…

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Me n My Madness – VIII

I had run away from everyone to the safest place with one full pack Marlboro. It was on the top of my madness’ house. There were no stairs built but it was easy for any monkey to reach there. When she found me nowhere she knew where I was.

‘Give me one puff’

I didn’t speak.

‘You look like Johny Lever when you’re angry’

I couldn’t stop laughing. If not for her good humor she made everyone laugh at her PJs.

‘Do you think what you did yesterday was funny?’

‘Of course it was. Why are you so serious about that?’

‘Nothing’s serious. Leave me for a while’

It was a little harsh of me, but I had to scream. She was apparently disappointed and started crying… as always! Though I didn’t speak for sometime, I went to her and offered my hanky. She snatched the cigarette instead and started smoking. Whenever she smoke or rather tried to smoke she caught cough and fell ill. I was trying to stop her but she pressed the lit cigarette against my cheek. It was instantly burnt and looked red. Before I realized I was wounded she took my cheek by her tongue to make it cool. But it had turned more crimson may be because of her lipstick! I felt the chilling wave splash at once. She hadn’t stopped, thinking I was hurt badly… so she carried on with what she was doing just until I turned my cheek away from her lips to face her. It was the first time 4 eyes met not to fight, the lips did not yell at each other and we did not hate each other…

I moved a little ahead while she paused. I moved little more and she didn’t move. I moved little more when we were half a centimeter away and I stopped. The breaths were audible and the wind she blew met mine. She came forward and it was a gentle touch when Roxy came barking in. She moved away and took Roxy in her arms and kissed her with extreme love. I stayed looking on.

‘So you love Riya, right?’

‘hmm… yea, na… hmm … …’

‘You know what? I’m also in love.’

‘With whom?’

‘You know who it is, don’t you?’

‘hmmmmmmmm’

‘Yes, take the name…’

‘Your mom?’ I knew this was what she would always say.

‘Come on…’

‘Then who else?’

‘Roxy, idiot!’

Well that was my madness, kept me guessing, kept me thinking and left me confused. But I had come to a serious realization… you should not have 2 aims in life!



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Me n My Madness – VII

As most of my friends would agree, I believed there were only 2 types of women – one beautiful and the other more beautiful until I saw this 3rd one… the most beautiful! With a silky black skirt a middle aged lady was standing outside. Without being surprised to see a boy and girl fallen down she came in laughing loud. I felt more embarrassed than Riya as she went on to hug her!

‘Are you alright?’ she asked me. I just nodded…

‘Hi, I’m Priya… Riya’s mom!’
Oops! I thought it was her sister!

‘Why are you surprised? Did you think I was her sister?’ she again laughed!
Another thing I didn’t know was older women read our minds like nursery rhymes!

‘Namaste aunty!’

‘You can call me Priya’ she came forward to shake hands.

‘Riya has lost touch with her dancing. If you want to learn I’m there’ she laughed again.

‘Thanks’ I said and went straight into the kitchen.

For next one hour I kept myself away from Priya and Riya. But my madness was always there to fix me…

‘Hello aunty, he likes Riya a lot’

‘Oh is it? Riya didn’t tell me… Do you like him as well?’ her mother was asking her. Poor Riya, I thought, but was also curiously waiting for a nod from her. Instead she stared at her mother and then at me. I gave a silly smile and had nothing to say.

‘If Riya is not interested I would be happy’ my madness interrupted our exchange of glares.

‘Why would you be happy? Are you seeing him?’ asked Riya.

‘Yes of course, don’t you know?’ my madness yelled.

‘Hey, what’s going on? What are you saying?’ I took charge of my madness.

‘You know everything. Now why are you pretending? Tell me right now, else I’ll leave’ my madness started crying.

‘Look, I like you but…’

‘But what?’

‘But, Riya…’

Priya took my hand and placed on Riya’s hand.

‘Are you happy now?’ both my madness and Riya asked.

‘hmmm… well, …’ I was swallowing my broken words.

Before I said anything else everyone shouted unanimously…

‘APRIL FOOL!’

I came very close to fulfilling the aim of my life, but sometimes worst nightmares come most easily...

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Blank Page…!

When he wrote he wrote nothing…
He filled an empty glass with nothing…
Void was the word that defined everything…
A blank page was all that was left for my being!

I bear no grudges nor do I carry anything…
I felt sad and dismissed with his shamming…
Why do I deserve a blank page was my questioning…
He didn’t take it back nor was it filled with anything!

Months passed and years were ending…
One fine day the blank page was all I was holding…
The moment of realization had come cracking…
I knew it wouldn’t end with this waiting…

The page was meant to be filled by me and not him, but I carried it whole life doing nothing!

Preyed...!

It was a beautiful morning unlike so many other days when the clouds never wore silver crown, the dewdrops never decorated the green petals, the tender flowers never bloomed to be so colorful and the birds so melodious! As always, I got up to my alarm ring and felt lazy to get up for the morning jog! But I couldn’t let it off since I knew there was something special about this morning and something awaited me miles away. I got up on my feet and felt happy for this unusually pleasant morning which I had never seen before. From the window standing trees welcomed me to join them for a while. ‘Yes I’m coming out’ I said…

The newly bought Reebok shoes and jockey boxer were all that I needed to cover myself for the jog. I started off and felt like everything else was moving along my side. The chirping was louder, the waterfall was thicker and the clouds were denser. I was not jogging but dancing to the unheard tunes of the Jungle that somebody composed specially for me. Yes, it was conclusive… the day was indeed different and something very unique was waiting to happen. But was my belief so right!?


After 2 miles and half an hour I was at the sea. A sunrise at the seashore… who on earth has words to express what it looks like? I closed my eyes for a minute and then as always jumped into the water. To swim against the waves could easily be the most difficult exercise ever. Inside the water there’s a sense of pleasure when you see other animals. Of course, you cannot compete with them and win but you see that you can just do anything… swimming to flying!

There was a red coat on her body. It resembled like something that was made of diamond and was made just for her! It looked smooth like velvet and she looked gorgeous. She was sleek and had a tender body that was striking. The way she swam impressed me to follow her in the water world. She had noticed me coming from behind and had started swimming faster than before. I lost her for a while in the midst of a storm, but my eyes looked out sharply. She was by my side in a jiffy. I touched her gently and she threw a gesture of being loved by my touch. I was flowing my hand all over her body and she bowed down to enjoy my company. I was trying to hold onto her and she equally acknowledged. I kept swimming with her and we both reached the shores. I wanted to come out but she didn’t. I wanted to have her but she refused to come out. I took her out of the water in my hand and she was dancing to her death. She looked into my eyes and I looked away…

In a few seconds, the fish lied dead on my hand and my mouth was watering. I had nothing to cook, but I liked having raw fish. So delicious! How could god make something so beautiful and delicious I thought! This was a small fish and I tried to get a bigger one for my breakfast. I jumped into the sea again. This time the prey was someone else…!


The waves went haywire, never allowing me to come anywhere near the shores. I was swimming hard but never moved. It was like a trap tailored for me and I had drunk more water than I ever had. Not for a moment I was let out of water! While someone was pulling me I felt someone was also pushing me into it. The breaths I took were faster and the red fish stayed on my mind. ‘God save me, take me out of here…’ I prayed and cried and yelled. I only saw 100s of such fishes I no more wanted to take home. Just 'I' wanted to go home. But there was no one to listen. I went down, deeper and deeper. My breath slowly halted… I slept on the floor of the sea!

Next morning I woke up. I was still in the water, I was still breathing. I was happy and enjoyed swimming. I didn’t fear to get drowned. No big wave ever scared me. I had all the fellow fishes who were my family and friends. I didn’t want to leave them and didn’t want to go anywhere out. I loved all the food I got under water. Even I looked beautiful and attractive with newly woven velvet!

It was another day when a man came into the water. He rushed swimming behind me and I knew his intent. I asked god to save me and let me swim faster. Yes, I did swim faster like all fishes did. But the man had to win and I was to rest in peace on the cruel hands of that human being who ate me in no time!

The waves waited for another prey and the fishes waited for their friend on his way…