Defeat...!

And so it was his birthday, and I waited longingly at the park on a stone bench which painlessly let us rest underneath the banyan tree for all these years! Two sparrows walked almost seeming hand-in-hand, one appearing half younger than the other. Their steps small and distances long, sometimes flying as high as the winds wished and walk as far as the roads lay. Some food transferred from ground to the older bird’s mouth to the younger one. May be they spoke something to one another which only they understood and no Business school on earth ever taught…!

I glanced more on them than on the wide green grassy land with afternoon showers’ decoration. Moon was let in even before the Sun sunk in but he had not yet arrived. I wasn’t worried if he would come or not, nor was I doubtful on my abilities to convince him of what I had decided, but the sparrows seemed to disturb me more as I was loosing the composure that I had come in with. Far, as far as my recently blurred vision traveled he stood…

Walking slowly like someone disinterested, tired and weak he was approaching. A heavy bag on the sagging shoulders seemed like so much of a burden and I was getting more trembled than happy. He stood in front of me, I smiled, he turned away, I posed a hug and he sat down…

Wish you happy birthday, I had told him every time this day of his life arrived. Today I had not yet said and just turned to look at how he was feeling. With muddy white shirt and crumbled hair he looked 5pounds weaker in a week! I observed carefully his dry lips remembering those first of the words that he had spoke – ma, ma… he didn’t seem to notice me but was engaged looking around, anticipating someone.

Wish you happy birthday!

Did you come alone?

Yes, I’ve split with your mother… you don’t even need her! I’ve been with you and taken care of you for all these 7 years…

And I’ve been with her and she’s taken care of me for 7yrs 9months…


This time I was defeated, whoever told him all this! May be she did or may be it was him, but I’m defeated and I sit there alone as I see him walk past my blurred vision…


Smallest of the words sometimes transforms into biggest of the defeats…

Bites4…

If we’ve lost the fear of losing, we’ve nothing else to lose!

I wish I had no wishes, but this wish of having no wish never ends!

Best thing about having no money is you don’t have to pay for anything!

If Death is end of a life, then life is beginning of the death…!

 

Can solve already…!

Bus Captain: It’s ok la, you can come in already. The swipe machine not working, take your seat first huh?

Ms. Ting: Thanks! How much is it?

Bus Captain: You can see the board ma, $1.30…

Ms. Ting: Oh got no change leh! Hey, do you have change for $2?

The white fellow: Sorry, I don’t!

I nodded indicating a no! I had not put my coins yet.

I had a $1 coin and 2 20cent coins and a 50cent coin. I was to either pay extra 10cents or 20cents or pay 10cents less ;)

I: Do you have 20cents apart from your $2?

Ms. Ting: (after searching her purse) Yes I have…

I: Take these $1.40 from me, put your $2+20cents along with my 40cents. You can keep my $1 coin with you…

Ms. Ting: (after taking her time calculating) So I put both of ours huh?

I: Yup!

Ms. Ting: Can, and I give you 10cents huh?

I: If you have… else, its ok lah!

Ms. Ting: (after searching again) Take these 10cents. Thank you aa?

I: No probs…

With Shakuntala Devi’s puzzles in mind, I thought there’s no problem that cannot be solved! You sometimes get a sweet smile as reward… I’ve started loving them, I mean those problems… he he :-)

Bites3…

The world bows down to the one who has the guts to bow down to anyone!

We are always in an illusion about others on our intentions!

If life was only so simple, our minds would've never evolved!

If I had never had those hard times that I had, I would've never had anything at all that I have ever had!

Sometimes God gives what we don’t deserve yet, to see what we do with it before deciding to add or chop from our baskets!

I asked what's life, he said 'It's a Perception... You have all that u need to perceive, so live on!'

We all have 4 days of life, 3 days we fight, on the last day we try to conceive... Alas, that's still the 3rd day for the world!

Give your hand to the love of your life, they can't see your heart anyways!

Can you say on any day, just once in your life, that you take only the blame and not the credit?

You let your ego live on even if you don't...

I’ve hurt my God…!

I’ve just hurt my god,

   and thrown rot at him…

She’s been bleeding of blood

   at what I just said!

As I was going off I thought he betrayed,

   I walked far across without her hand…

He laughed rains at me and got me wet,

   With thunders she scared, oh I fret!

I yelled loud at sky where I thought she dwelled,

   I hurled meteors back to get him dead…

All sunk back on me, after a while I said…

   It’s not him I hurt, it’s not her I dared…

All was to come on me lest no blood remained!

 

not…!

say not what you thought not,

think not what you want not,

want not ‘coz others have n you have not,

have not what you need not,

need not until give not,

given not when deserve not,

deserve not till serve not,

serve not when you’re man not,

man not when YOU R not!

Mujhe haq hai...!

tujhko choo na paaooo tasveer jo ho...
apne dil ko gale se kaise lagaoo, mann mein jo ho...
awaaz nahi aati koi, haath phehlaati nahi
tasveer se hee poocha karoo saamne jo na ho...

aarahi hai yaad, jaanta hoo tum na aaogi
khud hee lene aaoonga gar ijazat ho koi
wo nahi chaahta, ye milan tho hoga dheere
hum jo door yu rahe, dooriya ghatenge dheere

pyaar par khoob main dedoo, mujhe haq hai!
khat bina khabar pohunchadoo, mujhe haq hai!