Saturday, November 15, 2008

I’m Hopeless…!

‘You hopeless fellow’, my dad used to call me when he disliked my shabbiness as a child. Now I’m a different person but still hopeless…

Like certain other words in the English dictionary I’ve a problem or two with this word as well –‘HOPE’.

I hope I’ll get my dream job…
I hope we’ll meet sometime in the future…
I hope I get well soon…
I hope India will be a developed country by 2020…
I hope, I hope and I hope…

Hope also means desire, trust, optimism etc. Fine, but it also comes with a sense of negativity or fear of insecurity or unseemliness of something. We say we hope for something when we are uncertain of its happening. Like above, when you break up with your love you end up saying ‘I hope we’ll be friends, or hope we’ll meet sometime in the future’ means that you’re not sure. Why don’t you put it as ‘I’m sure we’ll be friends and I’m sure we’ll meet sometime in the future?’ Similarly the following…

I’m sure I’ll get my dream job…
I’m sure I’ll get well soon, i.e. tomorrow…
I’m sure India will be a developed country before 2020…
I’m sure, I know, I’m confident…

All these replacements for the word ‘hope’ bring in lot more positive-ness to things we do. Its more than just being hopeful, it’s about being certain and determined of what we do and confident of what we get i.e. the results! Are we not doing anything and everything to achieve something? Then why are we only hopeful and why not SURE? Because we’re scared to make such declarations. If I come out and say I’ll win a gold medal in tomorrow's event everyone’s watching to see if I really win and if I don’t there you go… see that overconfident ass, he thinks he’s a winner! But no one talks about the belief and confidence I carried with me. If it repeats again, then my self confidence is broken into hopes…!

So I don’t care, do we need to care about who’s going to pull us if we fail and become diplomatic and lead a politically correct hopeful life? I prefer being hopeless…

Yes dad, you were right and I’m born hopeless!

~Adieu

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

July 31st...!


It was a cheerful morning… when sun was on time and sky looked only blue! Such mornings instantly got me up before my alarm rung. As usual, after a morning jog and ready-to-eat rotis I pressed my 1 month old Arrow shirt that nearly matched my skin color. With a big smile I waved at the deaf walls of the living room as the door closed by.
20seconds and 10 floors deeper, I walked past the water fall at the entrance of the apartment. Someone had opened the gate and I stepped out briskly without noticing this unusual scene. A dog was all alone outside the gate…

It wasn’t a stray dog and looked rather beautiful to be homeless. As I turned back, my 20th smile for the morning had flashed! Such a cute doggy, I thought and was hurrying towards the bus-stop. But I wasn’t alone as the dog started taking my path and as I reached the bus-stop, it stood beside me. Everyone was almost staring as if I had brought my pet without tying it. But it wasn’t my dog, why had it come along with me!? Did I know her…!? She was the same Pomeranian… a huge resemblance!

Two years ago on the same day in a different country, Roxy fell sick on a similar morning and I had no time to take her for treatment. After few hours while I was still at work, I got a call from home… ‘Roxy is no more’ told my mother. And I almost cursed her for breaking such a bad news, but being the culprit I sunk in at the pantry all alone! Without tears I cried for the whole evening at the pantry and as I got another call asking me to come home soon, I refused to see my Roxy buried and decided not to go at all… ‘I don’t want to see her’ I whispered on phone.

It was almost 10 in the night when I dared to go upstairs where Roxy dwelled for the past 9years and the terrace looked empty without even the sound of her breath or the cheer of her run! There was only one sound… weeping of my self!

Today on the 31st July, she had come back thousands of miles to remind me. I instantly felt like taking her in my arms and my bus had come to pick me. With tears, I boarded and until the last glimpse I saw her seeing me… are you Roxy I asked!

Sometimes your questions are unanswered and that’s the wisest reply he chooses… I wish there were times for confessions too!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

I Await…!

Yesterday we met for the last time…
And ya know I’ve lost all that was mine!
There hasn’t been a moment without your thoughts since then…
You’ve left a body whose soul isn’t just fine!

I write and don’t wanna read to you…
I sing and don’t wanna devote to you…
For my poems might cry and my songs would die,
If you walk away like you did once while!

It’s gonna be a decade since I first saw you…
Ah Fate! Today, I mourn without you…
You’re in heavens where my flowers would be sent
With your smiles they would dissipate and I wait…
Until I’m taken to you, the heavens I await… … …

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Just Smile...!

Just smile, wherever you are… you smile!
Like a ray you kiss my nail… and smile!
And your joy in my soul I hear…
For my nerves tell me you’re here…

Often it happens… when I think of you I’m blurred!
In my senses is your fragrance… that gets me stirred!
In your eyes, some magic lies… just smile!
Wherever you are… you smile!

For winds breathe harder, hide me beneath your arm!
In the beauty of your eyes’ lullaby, I lay warm!
In your eyes, I perish… and just smile!
Wherever you are… you smile!



PS: I was too inspired by 'Tu Muskura'...

Saturday, November 01, 2008

Main Main Main hoo Yuvvraaj...!

Well, I’ve not written any review on any music before. Whenever the tunes of Rang De Basanti played I wanted to write, but here I’m hooked on after nearly 3yrs!

Taal being one of the most melodious albums ever made in Indian cinema, I was more than disappointed with rest of Mr. Ghai’s releases until this one. There was no news about this album and ARR once said in an interview about the music of Yuvvraaj, ‘Just wait and watch!’ hmm… there must be something really special about it, I knew!

It starts off with Salman Khan’s rendition with Beethoven’s in the background. A perfect start to the album with Salman Khan’s distinct accent… not American not British, its Sallu’s own!

Then the 1st song of the album kicks off with Benny Dayal’s high notes followed by western-mode chorus. Gulzar’s presence is felt with ‘main jaagta rehta hoo neend bhari jheel si aankhon mein’ Even before Shreya Ghoshal starts, you’ll start humming. There’s a never-heard-before kind of ARR’s appearance which fades in a few seconds! And you’ll love it… well, expectations are set quite high!

Next song starts with your foot tapping right away! Though I felt ‘Shano Shano’ is done with quite an average melody, Sonu Nigam comes as a soothing refresher. Gulzar again keeps you wondering with ‘apno se mat uljho tum ghaironki baat par’. Well, I would’ve loved it if this song was 2 minutes shorter. This song gently reminds you of ‘chori pe chori’ from Saathiyaa and towards the end more like ‘Baazi laga’ from Guru. An average dance number hopefully with some excellent choreography…

Hmm, one good song and one average number! What’s next? The soulful song of the album…

Right from the 1st note of this five and a half minute journey is something you’ll cherish for long time. Alka Yagnik has outdone herself & Javed Ali whose ‘Jashn-e-bahara’ still echoes is fabulous in this one. Be it heavy duty violins or alaps ‘Tu Muskura’ is a clear winner! With lines like ‘Tez chalti hai hawavon ki saasein’ – Gulzar is again at his creative best! As this song gets better, the final aalap ends with your Goosebumps on! 10 on 10… if ‘Ae Ajnabi’ was my most favorite, I rate this the 2nd best! Alka, you take away the best singer award this year!

Now, it’s only a pity for ‘Mastam Mastam’. I wonder who will like this kind of a song! It reminds me heavily of an already forgotten ARR’s number from One2ka4 which was ‘Alley Alley’. This song is definitely more situational with weird noises and incomprehensible pen of Gulzar. Ghai can only hope people would love the visuals and let Gulzar explain what are hastam, shustam and sustam!

Srinivas who’s another underrated talent soothes with ‘Zindagi Zindagi, kya kami rehgayi’. Wish he had more numbers in Hindi. I must say the 2nd line of pallavi gets its beats from ‘Lukka Chuppi’ (Rang De). You may choose to ignore because it’s the maestro’s own composition. A decent number!

Next comes the lengthiest track of the album… 7minutes – ‘Dil Ka Rishta’. This was the 1st tune I saw on trailers and got glued to my keyboard until I played it. A very simple tune made into a jingle of western and classical extravaganza! This one’s meant to be played in the movie like ‘Ishq bina kya jeena’ in Taal as a climax song, so expected to be the best of the lot. And yes, it is… with huge contributions right from Roop kumar Rathod, Sonu Nigam and the maestro himself doing an unusual sargam. The English lyrics in the song induce quite some sentiments… ‘Passion, aggression… can I leave it somewhere!’ Gulzar gives his best to match Ghai’s philosophy… this song comes with more memorable lines ‘sar pe agar dhoop na ho, saaya utarta nahi… rishte bina hai jiss tarah saaye bina aadmi… tu palke utta tho zara, rishton ki roshni tho ho!’ etc etc…
There’s so much about this track that you’ll love and might take it as your favorite number!

‘Manmohini Morey’… I’ve frankly never liked mixing a Hindustani classical with jingles and techno beats. But when the maestro’s done it, it’s gotta be good. Wherever he found this guy Vijay Prakash (Saregamapa Alumni) and gave him a song like he did for Sukhwinder Singh (chayya chayya)!! There's a blend of 'Manmohini' mixed with the tunes of ‘Tu Muskura’ so perfectly and you’ll not stop smiling. Creativity at its best!

The last track of the album is the least I liked. You might not agree, but the only good thing about this remixed version of ‘Shaano Shaano’ is Salman’s bad guy voice and some peppy English lyrics like ‘Please me, don’t you want my room keys… I’m the Casanova’ Goes well with Sallu’s so called image. You may tap your foot here and there in those 2minutes and that’s it!

So that was Yuvvraaj! 3 cheers to the trio of ARR, Ghai and Gulzar saab. They make this album a memorable and a soulful creation… play it in loop and hey, you might get addicted and infected by a virus out of ARR’s soul!

P.S.: Sorry, I’m not interested in rating this album unlike other reviewers.

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