Please Come Back…

One night I went in search of someone whom I thought I relied and believed always! It was a dark night and nothing seemed visible to the eyes that were wet and dozy. I was tired and upset and low and down but still wanted to meet. It had been long time since we last met and I started feeling it’s only me who was missing that important soul of my life. How ignorant of you? I asked with anger…

The wind never blew, the stars never shined, the moon didn’t glow. It’s been so many nights since we last met when I spoke for long hours, when I went sad and came back smiling, when I went with questions and came back with answers, when I went with anger and came back relaxed! Now where are you… why don’t I see you? Why don’t you want to talk to me?

I didn’t stop searching even as it was midnight. I didn’t care what the clock stuck… I didn’t care where my cell phone was. I just kept walking and I only saw dry faces, tall buildings, speeding vehicles, artificial trees and dead sky. I was seldom denied an appointment. When I said I wanna meet we met. It was me who had to ask, it was me who had to walk and it was me who had to talk… there was never a denial!

And today I needed to talk the most… it’s been months since we last spoke. Today I was the most disappointed and was the most worried about everything around me. And so I needed to meet more than ever before. Why was I turned away from your glimpse? Why was I treated hostile? Where are you and why are you angry or what are you angry for?

I cry and weep but you don’t come to console your child. You are the creator, you are my God! Why did you disappear? You know that I’m waiting to tell you something that I told no one. The night is going to end… I wait until the sun would shine… I know you’ll be back… I know we would talk… your son is waiting…

Please come back… …. …


Lovingly yours!
Krish

Me n My Madness – VI

It was a long weekend and folks at home had planned for a pilgrim visit, which I had no intention to join! They were co-operative enough not to force me but cautioned of utilizing those 3 days fully for studies. ‘I will finish the whole course in these 3 days’ I told my mom seriously. But she seriously knew it was a joke!

It was my Friday morning when it was actually Friday afternoon for others. I thought I got late with my plan… so I got up from the bed and 1st thing was to reach the phone…

‘Hey, come over!’ and had hung up. I then dialled the next one in the list.
‘Hey, come over!’ and had hung up. Next one was a little difficult.

‘Hi, good morning!’ I said
‘Hi, good afternoon!’
‘I thought we all would meet up at my place for lunch today.’
‘Who all?’
‘You me and Brahmaputra’ I knew she wouldn’t say no if Brahmaputra came over.
‘Oh. What’s the occasion?’
‘Nothing, just need to discuss biology’ This biology was the only subject that stayed in my mind even when I was out of my mind!
‘Ok, I’ll come with him… tata’ Riya had hung up!

My madness had come over in no time when I was just getting ready for a shower! She never came alone… Roxy always accompanied her. Those days I hated Roxy as much as my madness!

‘Find the vegetables in the refrigerator and get ready to cook!’ I ordered.
‘Ok, you go and take bath. It’s been 4 days already!’ she said… ‘come soon, don’t do anything else!’

When I came out of the bathroom I thought I was in a marketplace! The whole of kitchen floor was decorated with cut vegetables. She had cut vegetables that would serve 20 people!!! Before I said anything the bell rang! I ran onto open the door and saw Riya and Brahmaputra standing behind while Roxy had taken off my towel! I closed the door while my madness gave her silly smile and my towel!!

Riya did not like to see my madness and was just sitting with herself. Brahmaputra was kind enough to help my madness with her cooking and I sat with Riya as the jazz played softly.

‘Do you think it’s a nice music to dance?’
‘Yes, but…’ she hesitated.

I threw my hand at her and she rolled like a whirlwind into my arms. Facing each other in one step and banging the back in other we went moving. Hands clasped, feet raced and the momentum was on… excitement was high and it was a world of jazz and dance. Neither my madness nor Brahmaputra had come out of the kitchen. Song after song the dance was picking pace and Roxy had done another blunder. It had spilled oil all over the floor and in a moment we fell down one over the other as someone banged opened the door…



To be continued…

Me n My Madness – V

It was Riya! She almost saved his life… with wet eyes she stared at my madness and they walked out of the lab hand-in-hand! Oops that was a heart breaking moment for so many guys! Riya walking out with lab attendant… the news was too good to be a secret ;)

Later in the night I met Riya at the tuition and consoled her. We all went to watch the movie ‘dil to pagal hai’… me n my madness, Riya and her attendant! They were like me n my madness… neighbors and child-hood friends.

We had walked out of the movie midway and were waiting outside as we sat down to smoke! Riya’s love story had affected my madness more than me.

‘You know, she’s going around just to get good marks in the lab!’ she concluded.
‘Come on, they are child-hood friends…’
‘No, Riya is a liar!’ yet another conclusion.
‘Anyways, he’s atleast earning his bread! I don’t even have that. Will she ever marry me!?’
‘Oh God! You still love her? Even after knowing all these? You must be crazy… you’ve gone nuts… you are a mad!’
The last conclusion was indeed conclusive… my madness tagged me mad!

I didn’t know if I loved Riya but I was attracted. I didn’t know if I wanted to marry her but I enjoyed the imagination of being married to her… I was only 17 and thought that’s precisely the right time for marriage! Our great grand fathers married in their teens! Why not us!

As we waited for Riya and her man, my madness didn’t stop talking and I didn’t stop imagining…

As I sit inside on the rosy bed alone waiting for her to come, she’s pushed inside by her friends… with a glass of milk she walks in a rainbow colored sari… she slips on me and the milk rains as shower getting us both wet… with eyes glued to mine and trembling eyebrows she poses a sorry… I help her stop blinking by cleansing the droplet of milk on her eyebrows by a warm breath… she comes close to show her gratitude… comes more close… more close… close!

‘The gates are closing …. Let’s go out!’ my madness screamed in my ears!
‘But where are they?’
‘They might have gone already. Let’s go now!’

Why do pleasant dreams get bangings in the end! I didn’t know… I still don’t know. But when my madness is around, nothing can go right. She’s always at the right and I’m mostly the one who’s left…

To be continued…