It wasn't unattainable, but had become impossible; having tried n almost given up, he opened an unambitious pair of mysterious eyes that once glowed like incandescent and got up on tired legs that had won marathons! Whatever caused this degree of self disbelief, a sense of ending it all was way too strong to be given up and he was sure about one thing - it's not uncertain, it's gonna be!
There were no intentions of smiling or meeting up with any friends he ever had. 'They are just busy with their own lives even if they weren't really happy' he thought. 'I owe nothing to anyone and I'm free, I'm my master and there's no one above me, I can't be failing anymore' he reiterated. There had been enough miseries ever since he was born and all those troubled people he ever met were not really in any kind of trouble as compared to his own and the worse - they all believed they were destined and born to suffer. He differed and believed strongly that he couldn't be anyone's pawn or puppet, no god or fortune had any right to play his cards. 'It has to be me who shall decide, not a fate!'
He walked with content and climbed all the 24 stories with no heartbeat crossing normalcy, he seemed healthy and hassle free, whatever he was in life, he was going to be a winner in a while. He would be ending it all, saying goodbye to the world that did things against his wishes and life's no more going to be a surprise - neither pleasant nor unpleasant. Life's now certain...
It's there at the edge of the terrace over 24th story, he stood firm and wind wasn't going to push him down. It would be his self, 'I have all rights on my life and I'm not dying, I'm just transforming to another world that I know exists away from where I stand and all I wish will happen in my new world. I shall have no miseries and never feel deprived of anything that I deserve whatsoever and I'm moving on not from life to death but life to another' He stepped ahead and was just another step behind the fall.
'Yes, I don't need any courage to step ahead. I have it all and I'm moving on. I am the winner!' he said and stepped in air.
It wasn't too long before he transformed and what he thought or what he felt after that and how much of his new life was all that he wished for he couldn't tell. He had left and nothing mattered, not even his victory elsewhere! When he transformed it was all dark as if none had any vision, but echoing sounds - sounds that screamed unendingly...
'You left everything you had, you get nothing anymore, you've played your last move and spent all bucks, the Game's just over!'
When there ain't a life in a life, how can it be after!
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