Touch...!

When you touched my soul, I wasn’t too old

I wasn’t too young or forbidden by anyone

I wasn’t looking for love or to be romanced

I had everything I needed, so I wanted nothing more

But when you came, my heart pounced

I wasn’t expecting you or anyone

And then you touched my soul, something I hadn’t done myself

You taught me, by touching, that it could be done

And ever since, I haven’t let anyone else do it to me

What if I was only fragile and it was temporary?

What if I went on to marry someone that I thought I’ll fall in love with?

Ever since you touched my soul, it couldn’t belong to anyone else
Not even me...

You ruled, conquered and captivated

I’m being explored, and looked up

But could never be touched in the years since it all happened

Nothing comes close

Like my hands and legs opened up like a butterfly

Though I never could fly

Like being totally surrendered, when you entered

Moaning in silence, knowing nothing else

I went on with you in acceptance

As you rubbed and tugged

Hugged and ruptured

Havocked and stirred and ruptured

You touched my soul for once, and only once

For the very first and the last time

To rip it off my body

When I was 6

And I haven’t been able to find it, ever since!