For many years I lived in a state of remoteness and had survived in a world that belonged to nobody. You may call it ‘no man’s land’ where no human being ever stayed or lived with another. Even if you saw someone it was mostly in your dreams and none in reality… a world of all creatures of god except one… The Human!
Though I very much belonged to the normal world and was brought up like everyone else there was an assignment like the one that Lord Ram was given. But the condition being I go to ‘no man’s land’ alone. I wandered everywhere and saw lot many things and for a while, I was very excited! I talked a lot to myself high and loud, and felt as if there was someone with me… of course it was my soul. Days passed and months stretched with very little indifference! But there was one spot which I always went to again and again…
It was a little pond that I rushed so often. The water slept still in this pond and reflected the blue sky very well. Carefully standing on a stone placed with so much difficulty in the middle of the pond I looked down. I looked down concentrating on the water surface below and was bending to the extent I could. I was curious to see how I looked and what had changed in me!
Having not seen myself in the mirror for last few months I was worried if my face looked dull or if I lost more hair! This was an exercise that I was trying for so long but didn’t quite succeed in seeing myself completely and bugged of it I quit to come back all over once again just in a while. It’s so difficult to live in such a blind world where you cannot see yourself! You may loose your eyes one day and probably not see any of your loved ones but you cannot live another day without seeing yourself!
It made me think about those primitive days when man had not yet discovered mirrors or objects to reflect his image. But there were other people in whose eyes man first saw himself! Humans … they were made with each other and they were made for each other not against or different from each other as being perceived. We only talk about oneness but actions don’t reflect this belief. A Pakistani treats an Indian differently and a north Indian to a south Indian and a tamilian to a malayali and a neighbor to you. Were we not all one? Or at least we say so on a national day or a world earth day etc…!
All such thoughts crossed my mind when I couldn’t see even a single human not even myself in such a big world! The water didn’t show me ‘myself’ rightly, may be my neighbor did which I never realized or accepted! I prayed this time would pass by and I get to see all my brothers and sisters… we all don’t live in no man’s land but we act as if we did!
Why?
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